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Did I soothe my family with food so I could eat too?\"\"<\/a><\/p>\n

This is a good question I am trying to answer today.\u00a0 The cake on Friday night was all because I wanted it, not because my friends did.\u00a0 I even rationalize my holidays thinking no one wants to eat how I eat so I have to cook for them not me.\u00a0 I try to do both and stick to it, but who is going to eat clean when surrounded by all that stuff I can’t have?\u00a0 And I brought it into the house!<\/p>\n

I choose restaurants and meals sometimes solely for the other person’s needs knowing that it will allow me the excuse to cheat a little.\u00a0 I’ve been known to tell people “choose any restaurant, I’ll be fine” simply because I want an excuse to cheat.\u00a0 That’s a lot to admit here, but it is true.<\/p>\n

Today is day two eating clean.\u00a0 I feel like ASS. I’m tired, crabby, lethargic, my head is a constant dull ache and my system is doing it’s wig out thing it does when I eat clean.<\/p>\n

Gluten is like a drug.\u00a0 It makes me crave sugar, for one, but it also deadens me to how I really feel.\u00a0 When I eat gluten it’s like I have this cushion around me and I am more able to bounce back from things that rub me the wrong way.\u00a0 When I am off gluten, initially, all I want to do is get that cushion back.\u00a0 It becomes all I can think about.\u00a0 This time I am dropping processed grains, too, so there isn’t even the comfort of a gluten-free waffle or tortilla to comfort me.\u00a0 This is going to be challenging. I know that once I get past the hard stage it will get easier.\u00a0 I just have to get there.<\/p>\n